This week’s post is more of a flow of thoughts, a sort of self-talk. To be fair, all my posts are, to large extent, a form of self-talk—a monologue—but this one especially so.
I believe, or rather know, that an unorganized mind creates an unorganized environment, whether physical or digital. I see it reflected on my desktop: word files left behind, no longer needed but not yet deleted. I hesitate to remove them because they capture certain thoughts and moments of my life, frozen in time as words on a screen. I know now I’ll incorporate those thoughts into my journal, placing them on the dates they were written. In case you didn’t know, I’ve mentioned before that I keep a journal. It’s a way to remember the path I’ve taken to get where I’m going. I decided to do this after realizing that my mind focused on learning, adapting, and living in the present tends to forget countless details and scenarios from the past—details that, though no longer relevant, I want to preserve in one document for future examination of my past.
But I digress.
The sleep system I introduced about a week ago is working. I’ve noticed a surge of energy returning. It’s tangible—I see it in the speed of my typing, the sharpness of my vision, and the fluidity of my movements. At night, for example, when I get out of bed to take a leak, I’ve noticed myself moving with surprising energy and swift precision—a stark contrast to the heavy, clumsy movements I used to make. I’ve also observed my thoughts feeling sharper and quicker, though this seems to happen only during those brief moments of wakefulness at night or just before fully waking up in the morning.
For some time, I’ve understood that sleep is the cornerstone of my life. It’s the stable foundation on which I can build the projects of my days and weeks. Now that I’ve fully realized this truth and acted on it, I feel a quiet contentment in this area.
The Concept of Diamond Will
In one of my earlier posts, I mentioned my personal project which I called “Diamond Will.” After some contemplation and observation, I’ve come to see more clearly what it entails. By “Diamond Will,” I mean the unwavering commitment to doing what must be done in every moment, consistently, over an extended period of time.
But this requires three critical elements:
A body capable of action. A body and mind, which is one being, that are drained of energy are useless. It’s like trying to whip a half-dead horse to run a marathon. I can will it as much as I like, but I’m merely commanding a corpse to move. Good sleep, proper nutrition, and essential vitamins are paramount to ensure my body has sufficient, high-quality energy.
A state of mind capable of direction. For there to be any “Diamond Will,” a consistent movement toward a goal, it implies acting on the awareness of what needs to be done at any given moment. The awareness is already present—there’s no doubt about that. But this raises a question: Is it the awareness itself that takes action, or does it merely influence another part of the mind to act? Or perhaps it’s the result of certain psychological conditions that make this happen? I’m still observing and experimenting with this dynamic to figure it out, as I’m not entirely sure yet.
This is something I’ve only recently become aware of, and I’m still unsure how to address it. I’ve noticed that any environment—and particularly the presence and interaction with other people—exerts a subtle yet powerful pull to conform or be influenced by those around me. To make “Diamond Will” work, I’ll need to figure out how to handle this tendency: how to resist the brain’s urge to give in to situational pressures or the influence of others. I imagine it involves developing a kind of immunity to these external pulls—remaining steadfast in what needs to be done regardless of the environment or who is present.
So far, I’ve identified a few key components of this mind project:
Awareness of what should be done. This includes both logical and intuitive recognition of the right actions.
Awareness of what is currently being done. This means that I must fully recognize the body’s position (e.g., lying in bed) and the thoughts circulating in the mind—whether they align with or resist the right action. It also includes noticing sensations, like the comfort of being under warm sheets, and how my mind clings to such feelings to avoid action.
Visualization and acknowledgment of action. This involves imagining—and, crucially, acknowledging—what taking action would look and feel like: getting out of bed, feeling the cold, and moving the body. If the action is likely to feel uncomfortable in any way, I’ve found it essential to acknowledge that discomfort, as if telling my brain and body, “Yeah, I know, it’s going to suck.”
I came to understand and categorize these three aspects—what I should do, what I’m actually doing, and what taking action would mean—as I’m working to overcome inertia. I’m even employing other techniques like Mel Robbins’ “5-Second Rule”: counting down from 5 to 1 and moving my body during the countdown in order to mobilize my brain cells into action. (Interestingly, my mind eventually learned to resist this rule in the past, leaving me no choice but to make a conscious effort to override that resistance and make it effective again—an example of the mental tug-of-war at play in which my brain is caught up with from time to time.)
If I can refine this process, I believe I can achieve what I call “perfect days.” These are days when every action aligns with what I should be doing, without giving in to distractions or avoiding unfamiliar tasks. I’ve noticed that my brain is naturally inclined to repeat familiar actions and resists new ones. However, by being brutally honest with myself about this tendency, I’ve begun shining a light on my avoidance patterns. This honesty makes it harder for my brain to dismiss its responsibilities.
On a side note, I’ve found that action and inaction are closely tied to a specific chemical environment in the brain. It has become increasingly apparent to me that a shift in mindset alone cannot fully affect or change this environment, contrary to my lifelong belief. However, through experimentation, I’ve discovered that this environment can be effectively altered with certain supplements. What I’ve mentioned here, however, is a whole other topic for another day—consider it a preview of what’s to come in the next few months.
A New and Proper Source of Guidance
Have you ever heard the saying that you should only take advice from people who are either on their way to achieving what you want or have already achieved it? For a long time, I thought I didn’t know anyone like that. But recently, on Monday, while listening to Dan Martell on YouTube, I had a realization. The internet, this incredible creation of the human brain, solves that problem. It allows me to dive into a vast ocean of knowledge and listen to people who have already achieved the life I aspire to. Even if these people exist only as pixels on a screen, their advice and insights, if valid, are very real.
Now, I’ve started using my limited spare time to listen to advice from those who are already successful in the areas I want to master.
On the other hand, I deeply despise unsolicited advice from people who base their opinions on their limited worldview and personal insecurities. Comments like, “Why do you need more than what you already have?” or “You should take it easy” leave me internally baffled. Such advice stems from people projecting their narrow visions and beliefs onto me, defining what they think is possible or right based on their restricted view of the world and who I should be. Without exception, their vision always falls short of what I know I’m capable of achieving.
I don’t outwardly show my disdain, but I loathe this kind of input. Over time, I’ve deliberately removed or minimized the presence of such individuals in my life whenever possible. If outright removal isn’t feasible, I make sure to limit their access to me. I follow strict rules when it comes to all relationships—whether friendships or otherwise—and I’m entirely comfortable being alone.
Cooperation with others is one thing, but relying on anyone for emotional stability or psychological support is something I actively and unequivocally refuse to do. In that regard, I rely solely on myself.
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